Monday, June 27, 2005

Resume finally finished

Paula and I went out to spray our resumes. i sprayed three. hah. Second cup, something kids, Timmie's. near spadina and bloor and bay?? i dunno. oh, and i want to send fax but i don't have one. darnish.. think i'll just go to that place (forgot what it's called) but it's got an 'e', a 'z' and an 'i'. and i think it's a four-letter word. Ezit? eh, whatever. it's right beside my mom's work place. and they're hiring a "Dynamic, self-motivated shop assistant" (oh, the place is called "Zuei") i like the shop. went to church on bus for the first time in my life. it's 47B at Yorkdale station. Again, too much sun and got a slight headache :P gonna sleep.

Sunday, June 26, 2005

playing Softball for the first time in my life

Oh yah. had real funn in the sun.
The sun smells like sunblock lotion... i dunno today was fun and i have a headache. RrroooAaaRrrr!

Saturday, June 25, 2005

suddenly want to be honest

i'm so confused.. all these things lolling in my head, i want to take refuge in You. i somehow want to post this poem..
(that i learned in english class)
(best English class i've ever had, by the way..)

*READ IT REALLY SLOWLY* as if someone's narrating it for you.. like the "Lord of the Rings" starting narration.

The Swimmer's Moment
by Margaret Avison
For everyone
The swimmer's moment at the whirlpool comes,
But many at that moment will not say
"This is the whirlpool, then."
By their refusal they are saved
From the black pit, and also from contesting
The deadly rapids, and emerging in
The mysterious, and more ample, further waters.
And so their bland-blank faces turn and turn
Pale and forever on the rim of suction
They will not recognize.
Of those who dare the knowledge
Many are whirled into the ominous centre
That, gaping vertical, seals up
For them an eternal boon of privacy,
So that we turn away from their defeat
With a despair, not for their deaths, but for
Ourselves, who cannot penetrate their secret
Nor even guess at the anonymous breadth
Where one or two have won:
(The silver reaches of the estuary).

I don't know why i put it there.. but it's suppose to help me say something.. maybe not. Am i really in this whirlpool? my bland-blank face turning and turning pale and forever on the rim of suction? Am i daring the knowledge and being whirled into the ominous centre? i really liked this poem when i memorized it for the mid-term (now, practically forgotten), but i don't know.. I think God would not let us violently whirl like that.. OR i just need to learn to trust God that even if He does, if it's His will, it's all Good. So sorry that i did not trust You and seek You with all my heart. but thank You God for letting me go through whatever You planned so that I can be close to You again. Whatever happens, just don't let me ever part with You..

yah, i didn't write anything because i didn't want to share. selfish, nah? sigh..

Lala..

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

i thought..

... never mind. so tired.

1 Peter 4:12-16

Suffering for Being a Christian

Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you.

But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed.

If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you.

If you suffer, it should not be as a murderer or thief or any other kind of criminal, or even as a meddler.

However, if you suffer as a Christian, do not be ashamed, but praise God that you bear that name.

((a meddler)):
n. an officious annoying person who interferes with others.

Thursday, June 16, 2005

Proverbs 3: 5, 6

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight.

: ) thank You.
Be obedient to Him, yonsoo.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

: )

will tomorrow be really hot? i heard graduation days are always stiflingly hot. but it's raining today. nyah..

Roses mom bought for dad's grad are so big! it's now in full-blossom and it's so huge. no wonder it was so expensive.. mom says she doesn't have any regrets- now that it's so big and smells nice and everything. hehe took pictures of mom dad and jungsoo and it's so cute.

hmm.. gotta practice..

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

sigh

i want rain.
i don't like that song, "rain rain go away come again another day".
i don't care about "little sally want[ing] to play".
hmph.

haha.. density independant factor..
sigh, why is this in my head?

oh i'm watching this korean drama for the first time ever since i came here.. so funnie. sigh.. OH NICE RAINING!!! OH YAH HEHEHEHE THANK YOU!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH seriously pouring. wow... i'm so happy.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Isaiah 63:9-14

9 In all their distress he too was distressed,
and the angel of his presence saved them.
In his love and mercy he redeemed them;
he lifted them up and carried them all the days of old.

10 Yet they rebelled
and grieved his Holy Spirit.
So he turned and became their enemy
and he himself fought against them.

11 Then his people recalled [a] the days of old,
the days of Moses and his people—
where is he who brought them through the sea,
with the shepherd of his flock?
Where is he who set
his Holy Spirit among them,

12 who sent his glorious arm of power
to be at Moses' right hand,
who divided the waters before them,
to gain for himself everlasting renown,

13 who led them through the depths?
Like a horse in open country,
they did not stumble;

14 like cattle that go down to the plain,
they were given rest by the Spirit of the LORD.
This is how you guided your people
to make for yourself a glorious name.

Galatians 3:28
"There is neither Jew nor Greek, slave nor free, male nor female,
for you are all one in Christ Jesus."

on saturday i think? was reading random passage. i was crying before, but this made me cry because of something different :P// so sad that He had to destroy His children who are not children anymore. it's like.. Resident evil.. and you have to kill your friend who's turned into something horrible.. but then they were people and people can't fully love. so it must've been terribley awful for God..
and then connecting that to the second one (which i've read in the morning that day from Jungsoo's memory verse sheet), i felt so very ashamed that i wasn't doing anything for everyone else but me. but then, what's the point in just saying this. i don't know. i don't know. this is very important that i do not know. God just use me in anyway You wish but i need to know You more first. help!

oh yah.. tomorrow practice Gravityyyyy : )

Saturday, June 11, 2005

you don't know me.

Though he slay me, yet will I hope in him.
Job13:15

i want to sleep.

what am i doing here?
i can't sleep. i think i should just lie down. Revelation bible study is done.. i like the images and visions. interesting that i know a lot about this book more than any other books? i like it. things happening so quick and it's already 11th. July will come really fast and then it'll go.

i really need to get a job. so today, after i wake up, i'm going to work on my resume.. and.. use all the money in starbucks card. HE HE HE.

and then give resume to kabuki.

and colderone? ah. doesn't matter. wherever except A&W.. no i don't have a choice. i need money..

Had a good talk with George. We always seem to do this. it's either long talk or two words? hahah thanks George. It'll be fun if we all meet for a lunch or two; All UT people. oh yah, i don't know if i'm getting kicked out or not. (shrugs)

went to see the eye doctor and found out that my eyes got worse. Dad bought me these little Shrimp chips thing and it's an acquired taste. haven't acquired yet :P

there are 42 pages of Code of behavior (Rules & Regulations)@ UT.. crazy.. reminds me of that sign on the subway that says "in 1990". ours is like 2005 - 2006..

goign tobed now..

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Nail moon

is cute today : )
got a yellow dress and a slip-on from gap. Walked all the way to eaton with paula and everything and had FUNNNN- wow. i love walking even when it hurts. i'll go to bed now..

a new word i remember at the moment: ucky

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

Smile!

Oh yah.
now that exam's over, i feel so out of focus. or maybe too much in focus. whichever- doesn't feel right. anyway. i started my commissioning for Mr.Car :}) wow, it's huge. biggest i've ever painted -plus, i have roughly a week to finish the whole thing. i guess i'll work on it day and night : )

Loblaws had its grand opening today and now there's so many people in BV it's confusing. i think i liked it more when it was han-san-heh. (meaning: leisurly, quiet, light traffic, etc.) but it's good that it's opened.

gotta go to bed.
exam's over. over. can sleep in peace now : )


Which Family Guy character are you?

haha. i don't even watch this.

i understand algeo

that's right. right before exam. seriously i should've just sat down, forget about my (non)sense of direction and just work through my vectors.

please God, don't let me leave you. You work, i should work, too.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Habakkuk 3: 18-19 (kay-jay-vee)

Yet I will rejoice in the LORD,
I will joy in the God of my salvation.

The LORD God is my strength,
and he will make my feet like hinds' feet,
and he will make me to walk upon mine high places.

Monday, June 06, 2005

Lovely.

BIO exam DONE FOREVER!

chem tomorrow algeo tomorrow's tomorrow.

can't wait.

cute thing happened today:
Mrs.Radford goes "Yonsoo, come over here for a sec."
'Huh?'
Duri dropped something for me at the highschool office.
a home-made caramel pudding!!!
oh my. so yummie.

thanks Duri :' )

Friday, June 03, 2005

Nice.

Calc done. ISP's been let go. was that bad grammer? eh.

bio seriously no idea. chem so very lost. wa ha uu ah.

wow. Jeesoo is so old she's already 17! i thought she was younger than i am by like.. 2 or something but then, she is.

I feel like i'm still in my grade 9. No, i'm always in grade 9. no matter how old i am. so weird that 3 yrs had past already. oh i know why this is happening. because my korean life ended in grade 9.

so it didn't hit me that i'm actually graduating highschool. always thought of highschool as my 'middle school' in Canada. darnish. give me back my highschool daysssssss

okie. still have like.. 6 7 8 three days. great.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Your Element is Earth

Your power color: yellow

Your energy: balancing

Your season: changing of seasons

Dedicated and responsible, you are a rock to your friends. You are skilled at working out even the most difficult problems. Low key and calm, you are happiest when you are around loved ones. Ambitious and goal oriented, you have long term plans to be successful.

What Element Are You?



haha. it says i'm ambitious and goal oriented. ah ha ha.

Proverbs 9:8 - Do not reprove a scoffer, or he will hate you; reprove a wise man, and he will love you.

got this verse from Mr. Vermont's blog but i don't know two of the words and here i go again; dictionary.com

re·prove tr.v. re·proved, re·prov·ing, re·proves

To voice or convey disapproval of; rebuke. See Synonyms at admonish. To find fault with.

scoffer

n 1: someone who eats food rapidly and greedily [syn: gorger] 2: someone who jeers or mocks or treats something with contempt or calls out in derision

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

bitter bitter sweet sweet sweet

school is almost over.

6/2- eng exam

6/3- calc exam

6/4- saturday

6/5- sunday

6/6- bio exam

6/7- chem exam: Orth appt.

6/8- algeo exam: VBS mtng.

6/9-

6/10- wonderland: not going

6/11- saturday