Monday, May 30, 2005

Sometimes..

i look at the mirror and freak out because i'm not the person i remember. i've grown so much. it's very weird. time is short on earth and it will be done very fast. and i should put all my energy on doing what i'm doing becuase it's worth it. it will be worth something later on. I will work hard. because God works. it'll be hard not to notice trivial things and so on, but i pray that i will stick on and just do what i'm called to do. right now i'm called to do my over-due essay and an over-due ISP and a major ISP essay outline and essay and log and everything inside the binder. I didn't go to prayer meeting today because that was my consequence of not being prompt. things work in both ways. realizing. i need a fresh start. everything is being piled up; seemingly never-ending. fresh start.. a day left. Thank you God.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

last sunday before the end of attending highschool.

still have overdue essay and an overdue Algeo ISP. what is this? i hope i don't procrastinate this bad when i get to university. that is, if i get in. now that i see so many over due stuffff, okay. this is getting no where.

right now i'm on NArnia and Hind's. both books are highly recommended. especially "Hind's Feet on High Places" by Hannah Hurnard. i suggest that you read the brief autobiography at the back of the book first before you begin.

it's been really. ebb-ish these past few weeks. lots of drama going on. being washed this way and that. very weary - yet fun. and still procrastination butterflies flying everywhere. "fa-lee-fa-lok" is the word?

anyway. that should be stop sooner than later. with exams coming up and stuff.

all i'm thinking is that i should be listening.

i'm busy but i can not be busy enough to not have time with God. but it's my fault that i didn't finish work on time which caused me to be tired and which caused me to not have time with God as much as i want. i'm to blame. forever -until i stop procrastinating. this year, if i haven't learnt anything more, i learned that procrastination is a sin and it sucks. i hate it. and i do it ALL the time. just help me focus, please- God. i need discipline. how do i get it i don't have self-control. and Gal 22 says it's a fruit!

19 The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20 idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21 and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God.

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*found in dictionary: or·gy n. pl. *or·gies 1. A revel involving unrestrained indulgence, especially sexual activity. 2. Uncontrolled or immoderate indulgence in an activity: an orgy of spending. See Synonyms at binge. 3. A secret rite in the cults of ancient Greek or Roman deities, typically involving frenzied singing, dancing, drinking, and sexual activity.

ntr.v. *dis·cord·ed, dis·cord·ing, dis·cords To fail to agree or harmonize; clash.

dis·sen·sion (d-snshn) n. Difference of opinion; disagreement.

fac·tion1 (fkshn) n. 1. A group of persons forming a cohesive, usually contentious minority within a larger group. 2. Conflict within an organization or nation; internal dissension: “Our own beloved country... is now afflicted with faction and civil war” (Abraham Lincoln).

con·ten·tious (kn-tnshs) adj. 1. Given to contention; quarrelsome. See Synonyms at argumentative. See Synonyms at belligerent. 2. Involving or likely to cause contention; controversial: “a central and contentious element of the book” (Tim W. Ferguson).

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22But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. 24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the sinful nature with its passions and desires. 25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit. 26 Let us not become conceited, provoking and envying each other.

even though i lack in other things and stil l have the things above and stuff. the last one i really don't have. maybe some. but not adequate;;? darnish.

pray more? : ) HEHE.